laughingsquid:

Things That Seem Normal When You Live Alone

thedailywhat:

Afternoon Snack: Indiana and her reflection are no longer on speaking terms.

[hyst.]

wwreakinghavocc:

we both left the room, but i went back and hid.

and so she wanted to make a video.

but instead i scared the shit out of bailey oh my god hahahahah

lol this is fin hilarious 

i feel like I’ve grown up way to fast. i don’t actually know how to not think about something before i do it and i don’t know how to not think about consequences. this makes me sad a little i mean i am 19. I’ve been like this since i was 13. I’ve been soo obsessed with making sure my future is set that I’ve already lost a big part of my life. for a normal person the “prime” of their life, when they were carefree and happy, is at my age. i on the other hand would have to say it was the summer i turned 12….12! the future that I’ve spent so much time planning is slowly inching on me and I’m going to spend all of it planning for the next step. nothing i work for will really be enjoyable because its all over shadowed by the fear of the future and constant NEED to be ready…apparently, ready to continue to be in constant fear of the future. what kind of life is that for anyone anyways? i miss my forever young spirit. i miss my far fetched dreams and desires, and i miss my best friends who were just as crazy. we were generally innocent, we were happy and didn’t give a shit what we were suppose to do.

i guess sometimes i just wonder why i try so hard to make things better for me in the future when maybe I’m just really encouraging myself to skip living all together. its possible to have a life without actually living :(

Today was officially the first time i’ve ever met a parent whos parenting styles made me straight up sick. watching this woman scream empty threats at her 2 young children, not even trying to corral the 2 boys (who kept running into people, screaming, and laying on the floor refusing to move), but she was also screaming at her 16-year-old son for not being able to “control” his 5 year old brother. the 16-year-olds response? mom, Ethan is 6. the rest of the time in my check outline this woman repeatedly threatened to take away candy and ending up saying “they’ll come when we leave”. as these 4 customers walked away after finally getting them through my line, where even the manager couldn’t help but stare. seeing the lady full length she herself was filthy, just like her children. literately covered in dirt and as they walked by i got my first whiff of them and it was just horrible. after that…during this so many thoughts were going through my head. first was an “i can do it better” thing. with the hubby and i trying for kids i couldn’t help but think to myself that i can’t wait to have kids just so i can show people like that how to do it right and i almost feel bad for it. but i really don’t. then as they were leaving with the kids fighting their best to get out of the grasp of their brother…not their mother as should be, i thought about the fact that these kids who i would say didn’t know any better since their mother obviously didn’t care, were about to go out into a very high traffic parking lot in a town where apparently no one knows what breaks are. this thought absolutely broke my heart. i have decided i SOO don’t want to stay in the position i work anymore. there was absolutely nothing i could have said that wouldn’t have gotten me into trouble with my job for suggesting the parent be a better mother. because of this, i know now more than ever that Early Childhood Education is the best place possible for me to be. i need to have a job where i can tell the mother “hey you, shape up!” or on an even higher note provide resources for the mother so she can get things together. or to an extreme i could help those children what ever they may need.